Why...

I've uploaded some new songs. Some have stayed the same, but the one that speaks to me the most is "Why", by Annie Lennox. That song has so many memories attached to it. Back in 1999, I would sit at the IMac at my Aunt Judy's house, and listen to the Arista Records The First 20 Years CD. This song, along with "Coming Around Again", by Carly Simon was on it. I would listen to that cd nightly while I chatted in the Cafe Chat (a chat site which is but a memory now). I met a lot of people there. Neil, Brian, Fiona, and many others. I still stay in contact with Fiona, and Brian on occasion. I was in a relationship with Neil, that was definitely no good. Ah, the memories.

Music tells a story. Through music I've loved, cried, laughed, and smiled. Take for instance, another song I have on my playlist-- "It Ends Tonight", by The All American Rejects. "Your subtleties, they strangle me. I can't explain myself at all..." How powerful are those lyrics? That song is cleansing to me. Every time I hear it, I think of Phil, and the fact that it's over. It ended. Whatever the hell it was, it's over.

Say It Right. "You don't mean nothin' to me." Powerful words. You don't mean nothin' to me. I sing that, and think of Phil, casually. Pretending he meant nothing to me. Pretending that every word of that song is true. However, the song "I'll Be There," by Joan Osborne (my FAVORITE artist) holds far more truth for me than "Say It Right" ever will, I fear.

"In Your Eyes," by Peter Gabriel. A song that played on what was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. I walked down the aisle to meet my now husband, Chris. I had an absolutely beautiful wedding. It was lavish, and luxurious, but not what I wanted. I always want more. I wasn't as beautiful as I wanted to be. I was SO fat-- and I DO mean fat. Although, looking back, my wedding wasn't everything I wanted it to be, I have fond memories of that day. Every time, I hear this song, I think of how much I love my husband, and how thankful I am, that we've made it through all we have.

"Where Are You Now?", "Kiss From A Rose", "Total Eclipse Of The Heart," and "Waterfalls"-- the theme of the year 1995. Josh, and Billy-- the loves of our (mine and Jen's) lives. We cruised Greenwood Drive, and all of Johnson City in search of them in my 1986 Subaru GL. It was a complete dinosaur, but we made it look good. Hell, we made anything look good. We were 16, what DOESN'T look good at 16? Those were the days, for sure.

"Dancing In The Moonlight" by Toploader. This song played every single day at Proffitts' in Bristol. This is one of my favorite "feel good" songs. When I hear it, I think of standing at the accessories counter with Mary, looking through the huge glass doors at the beautiful sunlight of summer, or standing at my Elizabeth Arden counter with the girls, talking and laughing. Proffitts' was, by far, my favorite job, and everytime I hear this song, I'm taken back instantly to a wonderful time in my life.

We've all had our ups and downs in life. We've all had things that were elating, and devistating happen to us, and in many of these circumstances, music has played a great part in helping us through whatever it may be. Take a moment, today, to listen to your favorite song, or turn on the radio and listen to something random. Music is far more than just a song. What are some songs that have special meaning for you?